31. Hi, how are you are doing
Hi, how are you are doing I really wonder about it sometimes,
I know it's also not a good thing to just barge into someone's life,
after disappearing for such a long time.
All the good memories flash before my eyes,
and so do the bad ones and the bad times.
It's true we were very close once but somehow got distanced now,
I can take a step back, try to meliorate the mental clog,
speak things out of my heart before faith becomes your alien thought.
I was scared to be vulnerable around anyone,
constantly locking up my feelings,
pretending to be just strong but always dumb,
started slowly, but I opened up to you a portion,
we shared space, memories and friends,
it was too soon to just part ways,
do you ever wake up to your alarms,
thinking with the thought that I can't Let her go.
Our priorities changed and how we grew apart,
always leaving the bed empty,
but somedays I just wanted to come crawl,
take your sweaty palms in my mine,
and tell you how I was struggling.
Anxious from the horrors of the past,
didn't want to retrace the history.
So I give you space but drag you out of your bed,
waking up to your alarm bells yet choosing to let you go,
trying to be involved with everyone yet somehow felt alone,
blaming myself for not keeping up with the friendship,
have I been long gone for far too long?
So I would always check on you to see if you are doing okay,
leave little notes on the side of your desk,
little things in ways you knew my love could reach you,
only for you to make fun of it,
in front of our friends from the friendship we built,
you sold it
sold into parts and pieces of story tales without giving me the benefit of doubt,
you held it.
You changed and so did I,
I broke your trust and you broke mine,
you're just there running from the rain,
and I am here standing in one, soaked all in,
loud shattering thunder noise,
we had the same sky,
thinking under one,
why it breaks so loud what you love so much,
to trust someone it just hurts so much.
Wronged in so many ways,
acted on my faith instead fear,
so I let it go.
How are you doing I kept wondering about it for days,
always hoping for the best to happen in your life and hopefully it stays.
I know it's also not a good thing to just barge into someone's life,
after disappearing for such a long time.
All the good memories flash before my eyes,
and so do the bad ones and the bad times.
It's true we were very close once but somehow got distanced now,
I can take a step back, try to meliorate the mental clog,
speak things out of my heart before faith becomes your alien thought.
I was scared to be vulnerable around anyone,
constantly locking up my feelings,
pretending to be just strong but always dumb,
started slowly, but I opened up to you a portion,
we shared space, memories and friends,
it was too soon to just part ways,
do you ever wake up to your alarms,
thinking with the thought that I can't Let her go.
Our priorities changed and how we grew apart,
always leaving the bed empty,
but somedays I just wanted to come crawl,
take your sweaty palms in my mine,
and tell you how I was struggling.
Anxious from the horrors of the past,
didn't want to retrace the history.
So I give you space but drag you out of your bed,
waking up to your alarm bells yet choosing to let you go,
trying to be involved with everyone yet somehow felt alone,
blaming myself for not keeping up with the friendship,
have I been long gone for far too long?
So I would always check on you to see if you are doing okay,
leave little notes on the side of your desk,
little things in ways you knew my love could reach you,
only for you to make fun of it,
in front of our friends from the friendship we built,
you sold it
sold into parts and pieces of story tales without giving me the benefit of doubt,
you held it.
You changed and so did I,
I broke your trust and you broke mine,
you're just there running from the rain,
and I am here standing in one, soaked all in,
loud shattering thunder noise,
we had the same sky,
thinking under one,
why it breaks so loud what you love so much,
to trust someone it just hurts so much.
Wronged in so many ways,
acted on my faith instead fear,
so I let it go.
How are you doing I kept wondering about it for days,
always hoping for the best to happen in your life and hopefully it stays.