26. Blur

Overwhelmed with this emotion,
fear of losing and temptation,
can you feel them in or are you broken?
I am in pieces but not broken,
because I am yet to suffer burning explosions.
Can you swallow in your gut or it still has poison?
I waited drawn out, the moment has long gone,
time changes but you won't.

My eyes got bulged in pain,
the night turned itself into dawn,
perhaps they were crying for something,
or my unexpressed loneliness was the reason.
Everyone and their everything seems blur,
and how I always end up here,
everytime my eyes focuses in this mirror.
what I behold now is so true,
but some things are faded and unclear too.
I am unable to pull back to reality,
because I can't keep running any longer,
circling in an incessant blur,
the nights would end for the days to appear,
but I am still here in this blur.

Now I am all over your romance,
when our eyes meet, it feels like a battle of our glance,
I was lost but it made me strong,

adorned me like one of your trophies,

marked me under your spell of broken promises,

how you left me in a blur,
stricken, I have been resisting thunderstorms,
wrecked my mind more than once,
with a heavy ball of burden,
for all the ways of sins to this hell,

you caused me all the way, why am I still here,   
enduring these overwhelming emotions.
When the night changes and sun goes down, my mind melts into a blur.