56. I knew you

Did I say your name wrong, cause I knew you were leaving me, at the airport and now you are gone,
maybe for the best, you didn't even whisper my name once,
for a moment I forgot my name too,
but you hugged me so long at that line,
wrapping up your wrist around my arms, so tight,
my taste all over your lips, lust on our tongues that night,
shut my brain off for a little while,
we were both high on weed,
said naivety, so strange, blame only me,
such a hell, now turned into ashes are the traces of me.

the time is transient in the passing,
I'm sorry, you'd have to lie to someone you share your home with
somewhere in some other city,
if it makes me a bad person, I finally understand being a human,
the die has been rolled deep into this game of infidelity,
tied by a piece of string, me and you,
I'll be the one to pray for this fool shared of sin or two, 
cut each other off, and maybe grieve each other's loss.
we weren't meant to meet like this,
who would deny what's written in the destiny,
you and I can't deny this alchemy.


as I sip coffee from your lips,
waiting for my sweet final exit,
I understood things have never really been absolute right or wrong,
we steer off from this path, the moment we're in each other's proximity,
sip the last drop of coffee off of my collarbone,
kissing my lips, you are loving it, no longer anymore,
Mr minimalistic big guy,
you and I both can't deny this sexually explicit chemistry.


Did I say your name wrong when we were making love,
not the worst sin I committed tonight? I keep repeating it to be,
on a love spell with some kind of strings attached, the worst kind of casual sex I've ever had,
all my time till now has been one fleeting moment behind in the past.


But I remember you were leaving me too, at the airport, and now you're gone,
new version of me appears to come quicker than I thought, but the longing stays,
maybe for the best,
because you hugged me so long at that line,
wrapping up your wrist around my arms, so tight
such a hell, make you just want to stay here,
with blind trust I worshipped god, lust on our tongue,
I knew you, did I say your name right?