49. come back running
Life started anew,
a new chapter for me,
I wasn't ready standing still as it seems,
none the wiser at twenty-three,
daydreaming in the classroom, students passed out, escaped my time,
my pen broke, ink splattered all over the ninth cloud,
and I am here but I don't know how.
Life started anew,
going back and forth with self, often at the end,
stroked another of the brushes on a math test,
swept another stupid tests, unfamiliar words never made sense,
I accepted destined to be defeated,
the family pointed out my potential,
then went ahead and failed in all subjects they expected me to be different in,
but I wasn't like the others, a sempiternal problem to some
Life started anew,
thumping twenties, dinted in a bad light,
when I was trying my best to be,
and I was trying to end my life all that night,
because it seemed too big and too much all at once,
run down, unloved,
no I didn't want to be touched,
so I scurried up and run as fast as I could,
I probably hated the winter rain and summer tan,
It was only causing me to stay,
so I left this place like a coward you say
Life started anew,
I wondered if there's ever an end to all the tragedies,
no, I was never good in crisis,
they took me to places,
I chanted silent verses,
so no I never showed my sadness,
in hope it would happily kill me in silence,
as I said this while searching for happiness,
coming home to a single mattress.
Life started anew,
none the wiser at twenty-three,
running circles around can't force you to love me,
so If I ever leave this place,
If I ever runaway,
will there be a place I'd be back?
home to my parent's place?
home of the lost friends?
home from the pirate days?
and they said-"you will come back running" but where?
a new chapter for me,
I wasn't ready standing still as it seems,
none the wiser at twenty-three,
daydreaming in the classroom, students passed out, escaped my time,
my pen broke, ink splattered all over the ninth cloud,
and I am here but I don't know how.
Life started anew,
going back and forth with self, often at the end,
stroked another of the brushes on a math test,
swept another stupid tests, unfamiliar words never made sense,
I accepted destined to be defeated,
the family pointed out my potential,
then went ahead and failed in all subjects they expected me to be different in,
but I wasn't like the others, a sempiternal problem to some
Life started anew,
thumping twenties, dinted in a bad light,
when I was trying my best to be,
and I was trying to end my life all that night,
because it seemed too big and too much all at once,
run down, unloved,
no I didn't want to be touched,
so I scurried up and run as fast as I could,
I probably hated the winter rain and summer tan,
It was only causing me to stay,
so I left this place like a coward you say
Life started anew,
I wondered if there's ever an end to all the tragedies,
no, I was never good in crisis,
they took me to places,
I chanted silent verses,
so no I never showed my sadness,
in hope it would happily kill me in silence,
as I said this while searching for happiness,
coming home to a single mattress.
Life started anew,
none the wiser at twenty-three,
running circles around can't force you to love me,
so If I ever leave this place,
If I ever runaway,
will there be a place I'd be back?
home to my parent's place?
home of the lost friends?
home from the pirate days?
and they said-"you will come back running" but where?