48. My Mother knows
someday I fear you are gonna put that photo frame down, turn it away,
and for good, maybe you did,
my hand in your hair forget how I scratched your head in pain,
no but you are not always there for me,
so I took the pills bluer than the watery sky when I look up and got higher than these subliminal terrestrial beings,
skipped several dawn in beats,
magic planted myriad of miracle memories,
and for good, maybe you did,
my hand in your hair forget how I scratched your head in pain,
no but you are not always there for me,
so I took the pills bluer than the watery sky when I look up and got higher than these subliminal terrestrial beings,
skipped several dawn in beats,
magic planted myriad of miracle memories,
painted epiphanies like I moved on, but I didn't.
you left me here to die in pieces, started cutting me off by the sliver edges,
a sickening habit hard wired turned vile, ain't I the sickest?
run circles around, ruin my life.
difficult to hide the half starved face in front of my parents,
killing me inside, my rising half pitched fever,
no I am not dying but it wouldn't make difference,
waiting for you but they slammed shut the door I didn't have any other choice,
because this just ain't a game to play pretends in joys of joys.
you forgot you shared your credentials with me
until recently,
as a notification popped on my screen,
were you at her place like it's your new office,
pierce my heart with the bloodiest bullet,
lord knows how to hurt me the worst possible ways,
a picture of you and her through your google cloud appear,
now you are straightaway walking towards her,
who's probably unaware of how many days I counted,
packed your bags, forget and leave me caged in 5 minutes,
but I was still staring at you as you left my parent's place
my mother knew she sensed something wrong,
no but you're not coming back,
foolish of me to hear a knock on my door,
how can you love someone else
when I was holding onto this love, I was holding onto my tears babe,
now it's like I'm bathing in blood inhaling the thinest of air,
puffing up myself with murky air at the balcony, I don't know where to stare.
And someday I feared you were gonna put that photo frame down, turn it away,
for good and you did,
It's funny, how all of it is fuzzy today,
my hand in your hair forget how I scratched your head in pain so you could sleep in peace,
my mother knows I was only trying my best to be,
it's fearful without you in the world I live in, so I gather my strength,
missing you more each and everyday,
now it's time to wake up,
'it's only time to wake up' she said
you left me here to die in pieces, started cutting me off by the sliver edges,
a sickening habit hard wired turned vile, ain't I the sickest?
run circles around, ruin my life.
difficult to hide the half starved face in front of my parents,
killing me inside, my rising half pitched fever,
no I am not dying but it wouldn't make difference,
waiting for you but they slammed shut the door I didn't have any other choice,
because this just ain't a game to play pretends in joys of joys.
you forgot you shared your credentials with me
until recently,
as a notification popped on my screen,
were you at her place like it's your new office,
pierce my heart with the bloodiest bullet,
lord knows how to hurt me the worst possible ways,
a picture of you and her through your google cloud appear,
now you are straightaway walking towards her,
who's probably unaware of how many days I counted,
packed your bags, forget and leave me caged in 5 minutes,
but I was still staring at you as you left my parent's place
my mother knew she sensed something wrong,
no but you're not coming back,
foolish of me to hear a knock on my door,
how can you love someone else
when I was holding onto this love, I was holding onto my tears babe,
now it's like I'm bathing in blood inhaling the thinest of air,
puffing up myself with murky air at the balcony, I don't know where to stare.
And someday I feared you were gonna put that photo frame down, turn it away,
for good and you did,
It's funny, how all of it is fuzzy today,
my hand in your hair forget how I scratched your head in pain so you could sleep in peace,
my mother knows I was only trying my best to be,
it's fearful without you in the world I live in, so I gather my strength,
missing you more each and everyday,
now it's time to wake up,
'it's only time to wake up' she said